Handling "Humbling"
So I love Crossfit. I think one of the reasons I love it, is because I’m pretty good at it. I like doing stuff I’m good at. I like being the one of the girls at our gym that people look at and think “Wow, she’s bad ass!” I like being one of the girls with the fastest times and the heaviest loads (makes sense, I’m a competitive person). But I do know/realize that I am not good at everything, and that other people are better (sometimes a lot better) than me at things. I’m ok with that. But on days when a WOD has movements/skills that I truly suck at, it’s a very humbling experience. And it’s hard for me to not get frustrated.
So today’s WOD (Workout Of the Day)
for time (with 20min cap)
50 Abmat Situps
50 Double Unders
50 Abmat Situps
50 Walking Lunges
50 Abmat Situps
50 Burpees
50 Abmat Situps
Well guess what one of my number one things on my sucklist is… Abmat Situps!
So trying to be postive I say to Coach Kris, “Yay!” He knows I am silently cursing him in my head.
3-2-1-Go.
*20situps in and I’m dying! “It’s ok, it’s ok.” Think positively I tell myself! “I’ll make it up on the double unders - I’m good at those.” Finally get to 50 situps and guess what:
*DOUBLE UNDER fail today. Couldn’t get my rhythm down. DAMNIT! Finally finish and
*Back to situps and this round is EVEN harder(of course!). at 19, I want to quit. “I’ve been sick, I could use that as an excuse and just stop. I could say my head is hurting.” These are the thoughts I am having while everyone is starting their walking lunges and I am at 23-24-25. Ugh! -What kind of “giver upper” am I to be thinking these thoughts!
Finally I make it through the second 50 and I’m off to do my 50 walking lunges.
*While lunging I realize re-realize that, Yes I SUCK at abmat situps, but need to handle this humbling experience, and not think about the best way/excuse to just stop. I am NOT a quitter!!!!!!!!
*3rd set of situps. “just think 5 sets of 10, 5 sets of 10, Do ten, take a couple seconds rest, do 10 take a couple seconds rest, etc” DONE. Those felt easier than the last round. Positive attitude helps!
*Burpees…haven’t done these in a while, but I can do this. I can do this. Tough! Very Tough. But after stringing some good numbers together and some rests, DONE!
*”18:36! Less than a minute and a half to do 50 situps?!?! NO WAY! Ok, just get as many I as I can. I can do this! 1-2-3-4-5, REST, 6-7-8-etc, REST, 11-12-etc, REST, 19-20 (I hear Coach Kris counting down the seconds 5, 4, 3,) 21-22 (2,1, STOP!)
DEAD! BUT WOW, I wasn’t too far from finishing! Maybe if I hadn’t spent the second set of abmat situps concentrating so much energy on negative thoughts I would have finished!
So, this post is a reminder for next time. Next time when something comes up and I find myself behind the rest of the class, feeling like I “totally suck,” I need to push those thoughts out right away and think positive and think up my plan in my head, how I’m gonna get through this tough WOD (and humbling experience) and not focus on the fact that I am way behind everyone else, or that my time is gonna suck, or anything else, except my plan on how to get the work done!